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Vidding.
I just finished up what is probably the longest vidding hiatus ever. Since finishing that, I've wanted to talk about it because it feels really monumental to me, but now that I'm here I'm not quite sure what to say.
I honestly don't know what kept me from vidding for so long. Only that I hadn't made a full-length vid in years. Years. I did a couple of really tiny mini-vidlets as an experiment last winter with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mistojen, which was something -- but for me, even though I was happy with my work, it didn't really feel like it counted. In the end, the two of us didn't finishing our challenge. I am pretty sure the idea was to do at least two more. I don't remember the deal. Only that she made three and I only made two.
*shame*
I knew I was ready to be back to vidding because I did sign up for festivids this year and I had no doubt in my mind that I was going to be able to complete the project. I had a confidence that I would have never had this time last year and I have no idea where it came from. I pretty much only picked movies from the list of fandoms (for, the less amount of source footage the better) and just knew it would be something I could handle. It was going to be my "welcome back" tour. I had no expectations that I would make another video in the interim, but surprising myself and everyone else, I did.
It was definitely one of those "inspired" moments. Where you just kind of know. I took at least a day or two to think about it before daring to open up Vegas. But I eventually did and in the end came away accomplishing something that I haven't been able to accomplish in years. It feels really good, but I have no delusions about whether or not this will continue. The only thing I know for sure is that I will be finishing my festivids contribution. That's never been a question. But after that? Who knows.
Has anyone else had a hiatus from vidding that's lasted a particularly long time? Or maybe not even vidding. Maybe writing or graphic-making? What kept you away? What brought you back? Was it inspiration or just the right fandom at the right time?
I honestly can't put my finger on the answers to any of that. I think, in the end though, despite whatever kept me from vidding at the start, it was ultimately fear that kept me from coming back to it for so long. Or as J. Smooth once put it, the "little hater." I think I had finally gotten so far away from it that maybe the fear had finally gone.
I'm crossing my finger that it lasts.
Anyway, in case you're interested and if you missed it, here's MY FIRST VID IN THREE YEARS. It's to the E4 UK show Misfits, which is one of my current obsessions.
I just finished up what is probably the longest vidding hiatus ever. Since finishing that, I've wanted to talk about it because it feels really monumental to me, but now that I'm here I'm not quite sure what to say.
I honestly don't know what kept me from vidding for so long. Only that I hadn't made a full-length vid in years. Years. I did a couple of really tiny mini-vidlets as an experiment last winter with
mistojen, which was something -- but for me, even though I was happy with my work, it didn't really feel like it counted. In the end, the two of us didn't finishing our challenge. I am pretty sure the idea was to do at least two more. I don't remember the deal. Only that she made three and I only made two. *shame*
I knew I was ready to be back to vidding because I did sign up for festivids this year and I had no doubt in my mind that I was going to be able to complete the project. I had a confidence that I would have never had this time last year and I have no idea where it came from. I pretty much only picked movies from the list of fandoms (for, the less amount of source footage the better) and just knew it would be something I could handle. It was going to be my "welcome back" tour. I had no expectations that I would make another video in the interim, but surprising myself and everyone else, I did.
It was definitely one of those "inspired" moments. Where you just kind of know. I took at least a day or two to think about it before daring to open up Vegas. But I eventually did and in the end came away accomplishing something that I haven't been able to accomplish in years. It feels really good, but I have no delusions about whether or not this will continue. The only thing I know for sure is that I will be finishing my festivids contribution. That's never been a question. But after that? Who knows.
Has anyone else had a hiatus from vidding that's lasted a particularly long time? Or maybe not even vidding. Maybe writing or graphic-making? What kept you away? What brought you back? Was it inspiration or just the right fandom at the right time?
I honestly can't put my finger on the answers to any of that. I think, in the end though, despite whatever kept me from vidding at the start, it was ultimately fear that kept me from coming back to it for so long. Or as J. Smooth once put it, the "little hater." I think I had finally gotten so far away from it that maybe the fear had finally gone.
I'm crossing my finger that it lasts.
Anyway, in case you're interested and if you missed it, here's MY FIRST VID IN THREE YEARS. It's to the E4 UK show Misfits, which is one of my current obsessions.
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this is awesome, really!
(I got back into vidding like a month ago and I still don't think I'll manage to finish even my current project.)
I know how hard this is, really. so awesome!
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I would say I know you can do it, but I know that never helped me much. But I do have faith in you! When it's right it'll work out! Maybe that'll be this project or another one. Who knows. Just keep trying!
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My issue is patience in looking for clips. I don't have the patience to look for stuff and I'm not as familiar with the footage of any fandoms that I once was...at least not enough to know exactly where to start looking for stuff. For me, writing is the one I miss the most and it's just lack of right fandom, right time, I think... :(
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Yeah, source footage is always a problem. Whether it's obtaining it or combing through it. It helps that the show I vidded was a short one and I only used a few episodes from it. And that I had just mainlined it. Definitely makes a difference.
I still write. Am supposed to be writing right now actually, haha.
I actually watched the Dexter finale today. It's the first ep I've seen since the s1 finale. (And sadly it'll probably be the last.) You still watching that show?
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I've got that block now. It's been many, many months since I finished a vid. Whenever Club Vivid vids were due I think. I'm signed up for Festivids and thought that would shake me out of it, but haven't really been able to start yet. I know I'll complete it, because eventually my fear of letting someone down will trump my vidding fear thing. I dunno, I got the little hater.
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All I know about that block is that is SUCKS. I think "just do it" is really a good philosophy but sometimes you "just can't."
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I am here by chance after picking through all my old bookmarks of Best BSG Fanvids EVER, looking for yours called "Karma Police" and "Scratch," from back when you were aka super-kc aka FloatAwayFromMe. Are they online anyplace to stream or download?
Friending you to keep an eye on you now that you're back... :)
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