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title, rating: origins, pg13
fandom, pairing, wordcount: lost, slight richard/charlotte, richard/alex if you squint, 965ish
summary, notes: charlotte has returned to the island to discover where she comes from, and discovers a familiar face along the way. written for former queens [livejournal.com profile] gottalovev and [livejournal.com profile] eponine119. beta read by [livejournal.com profile] kmousie.

Charlotte remembers summertime at her Uncle Harlan’s cottage in Connecticut, the cool lake behind his house where she learned to swim, the box full of dusty medals and trophies hidden away in his shed, the things she never asked him about.

They didn’t have much in common, Charlotte and Harlan, and for a long time, she hated those summers. The only time they really got along was when they were in the water. He taught her the backstroke, the butterfly, the breaststroke, the crawl – left, then right, and back again – like clockwork, every summer until she turned seventeen. In truth, it was only when she was in the water, surrounded and consumed by it, that Charlotte felt truly free.

She never had the opportunity to tell him that – that they were more alike than he would ever have a chance to know.

After Harlan died, Charlotte didn’t swim for a long time, couldn’t even bring herself to go near the water.

-

“You’re not supposed to be here,” Richard says from behind her.

She’s watching the waves on the beach and she recognizes that voice, even without turning to face him. He’s soft-spoken now, like he doesn’t quite believe in his own words. But she remembers his voice very differently – louder, angry, and full of conviction, raised over her uncle’s one night after supper, after she’d long gone to bed. Even then, it was foreign to her, but she knew it belonged to the handsome, dark-haired man she’d seen watching her from the back porch that afternoon – the one who looked at her over dinner like he knew more about who she was than she ever would, and who made her uncle, a usually imposing, broad-shouldered fellow, as nervous as a frightened school boy.

“This is Richard,” her uncle said to her as she walked up the path wrapped in a towel. “He’s, um, a friend from town,” he stumbled over his words. “He’ll be with us just for tonight. Isn’t that right Richard?”

Richard smiled and ignored her stammering uncle. “Hello, Charlotte,” he said as he held out his hand. “I’ve heard so much about you.”

She smiled then, took his palm in hers, and apologized for getting him wet. He seemed charming, and she was seventeen, and if her powers of hindsight had been greater, she might have punched him in the face instead.

“But I’m here, aren’t I?” she says now in the sand, and Richard nods in turn.

“You are.”

-

Time hasn’t aged him, but she had expected that, knowing what she knows. And now it is she who invades his home, this place, this island, sits at his table, eating his food, fruit from the trees and fish from the sea. And whether he acknowledges it or not, it is Charlotte who belongs here – much more so than he does.

She follows Richard to a spot in the woods, a burial ground with three wooden spikes coming out of the brush, where he kneels in silence. (Wishing? Praying? She doesn’t know.)

She wants to ask him who they are, but she doesn’t, because every time she looks at him, she can see the loss of them in his eyes and that is all the clarification she needs.

Family.

Still, a question remains unasked.

Are they mine, too?

“I want you to take me there,” she tells him after an hour, the sun disappearing behind the trees. It isn’t a request.

“There’s nothing there to see.” Richard gets to his feet, drops the pebble between his fingers back to the earth.

”I don’t care,” she says, her jaw set.

“I do.”

-

She finds Richard at night, wakes him with a kick to the side, but he’s quicker than she thinks, and then she’s on the floor, pinned underneath him with tears in her eyes.

“At least tell me about her,” she cries, beating her fists against his chest. “At least give me that.”

“Charlotte,” he whispers, lifting himself off of her. “I never knew your mother.”

“But I thought?” She doesn’t finish the question.

“You thought wrong,” he says.

He stands, lowers an open hand to help her up.

“Tomorrow,” he says, “after dark. I’ll find you.”

-

He was right. There is nothing left to see but a heap of wood and brick, no bigger than a campfire, the underbrush of the forest having taken over any other remnants of whatever used to be there.

“What do you know?” she asks.

“I know you were the last, before Alex,” Richard says, his voice going soft when he speaks that name.

“Alex,” she repeats. “She was…”

“Killed,” he says, the emotion gone now, “yes.”

She shuffles through the small pile of debris, picks out a small, smooth stone. “May I keep this?”

“Of course,” Richard sits beside her and places a warm hand at her back.

Charlotte leans into his touch, lets her head slip below his chin, lets herself take more comfort in him than she will ever admit.

“Tell me something,” she says after a long time. “Did you know my father?”

He sighs and closes his eyes, and that is answer enough.

“What was his name?” She wants to know. It won’t mean anything, other than that he existed, that he was a real person, and that she once had a real father, a real mother, a real family, even if she was taken from them before she would ever know who they were.

Richard waits a long time before answering, pushes a lock of hair behind her ear, presses a kiss to her forehead.

Charlotte waits patiently, because she knows he’ll give her the answer. She’s known it from the second he came to find her on the beach.

“His name,” he says, “is Jacob.”

-fin

Date: 2008-07-24 10:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gigglemonster.livejournal.com
I totally love this. SO much.
As far as I'm concerned this is canon now, I could definitely buy this as Charlotte's story. It really gives her even more depth as a character and it's lovely to read.
The little Alex/Richard thrown in there made me squee haha and it fits perfectly within the story.
The ending is SO cool. I didn't see it coming but it's perfect.
This line made me go aww
Charlotte leans into his touch, lets her head slip below his chin, lets herself take more comfort in him than she will ever admit.

Yay for a beautiful fic! :)

ps. if i had a charlotte icon, or even a richard icon or an alex one i'd use it but..i don't lol

Date: 2008-07-24 10:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Hahaha, that is just sad... says the girl who doesn't have an icon to use either...

Well I have this one that YOU made.

Date: 2008-07-24 10:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gregoria44.livejournal.com
*goes to put a jumper on*

Is it me, or is it cold in here?

Nope, just a shivery, unusual, ghostly fic.

I like.

Date: 2008-07-24 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Hahaha, that's a good reaction... I think? Hehehe.

Glad you like sweetie. Thank you for reading!

Date: 2008-07-24 10:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quiet-rebel.livejournal.com
Oh, nice! I like the ending too, esp. with the twist of her asking what was her father's name and Richard answers in present tense meaning Jacob is still alive. Creepy.

Date: 2008-07-24 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Oh yay! :D I'm glad you caught that little bit. Thank you!

Date: 2008-07-24 11:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] danlotteshipper.livejournal.com
Love it! That was so good. Richard/Charlotte... that's some ship, huh? But I really enjoyed it in this fic.

You wrote everything so nicely. Charlotte was her stubborn self (perfectly voice), Richard was just... you know, awesome.

And then last line, even though I could see something crazy coming, I still gasped. Just a tiny bit.

“His name,” he says, “is Jacob.”
*chills*

Awesome fic. Thanks for the great read! =)

Date: 2008-07-24 11:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Hah well I'm glad you liked it even though it's not your ship. Thanks for taking the time to read and review! Also, this is my first time writing Charlotte so thank you for your nice comments on that. :D

Date: 2008-07-25 12:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eponine119.livejournal.com
Oooh, I love the Jacob connection! It fits so well! This story is great, too, the mood and the feeling of it.

Date: 2008-07-25 01:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Well I'm glad you liked it, though I am sorry it's so late. Hope you enjoyed. :)

Date: 2008-07-25 09:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lenina20.livejournal.com
oh, my fucking god. you know you are one of the people around that writes more beautifully! It's such a shame you don't write more often, really.

I love the idea of this pairing for how it ties with the mythology of the island - but what you did here is so amazing. Jacob. wow. I love how you only let on bits and pieces (but oh, so gorgeous) and the story builds in the reader's mind. Wow. This is truly outstanding - so perfectly written. With background info for Charlotte at two different levels. Like a big puzzle with all its beautiful pieces slightly scattered. I love this. I love it a lot!

Date: 2008-07-25 03:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
I never know quite how to respond to these lovely comments of yours. I think you give me much more credit than I deserve hehe. But thank you so very much for reading and saying such nice things. I really like Charlotte a lot and so I hope they do something interesting with her backstory, this is kind of my manifestation of that wish. Also I like to pair Richard with random people because I'm weird like that and I just love, love Richard.

Date: 2008-07-25 04:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lenina20.livejournal.com
Everybody loves Richard. So you loving Richard? awesome! :D:D:D:D That means fic! :D

You deserve much more credit that I give you, believe me. I can't wait to finish with BSG so i can read your fic. btw, loving it. So, so much! :D:D:D

oh - and I just finished your story. :D it's nothing much but I hope you will enjoy it. it's not richard/charlotte, though. it's other paring.
*coughs*icon*coughs* ;);)

Date: 2008-07-25 05:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Oh yay! Can't wait to read it!

Date: 2008-07-25 04:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] slybrunette.livejournal.com
How the frak did I miss this?

This, btw, is my own personal fanon now so, yeah, screw the show. This is better. And it fits.

Also the ending? AMAZING. Like knock-you-off-the-edge-of-your-seat awesome.

Love, love this!!!

Date: 2008-07-25 05:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
screw the show. This is better.

!!!

Wow! Thank you so much, babe!

*beams*

Date: 2008-07-25 08:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] siluria
Yay you for catching up, and this was totally worth waiting for, it really is fantastic. I love the scenario and the characterisation of two people we barely know is lovely. There really needs to be more Richard fic out there :)

Date: 2008-07-25 08:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Yay I'm glad you think so! :D

And I totally agree! More Richard fic, definitely!

Date: 2008-07-28 01:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gottalovev.livejournal.com
oh my god, this is just.... *flails*

wow. I cannot tell you how much I loved this, seriously. that last line gave me shivers. you have such a great writing style, scarce but so evocative, not one word out of place ♥

this is really awesome, sorry if I took a bit to come and comment, but I adore it, thank you!

Date: 2008-07-28 10:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Aw no don't worry about it. I understand. I'm just glad you liked it so much! *beams* Really know how to flatter a girl! Hehe!

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