krickets: (LOST. sawyer; no one knows)
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title: we're never going back home again
fandom, pairing, rating, word count: lost, slight sawyer/claire, pg, 380
summary: post s4, sawyer finds a new purpose
notes: written for [livejournal.com profile] purestvixen for [livejournal.com profile] lostsquee who requested sawyer. enjoy sweetie! thank you to [livejournal.com profile] kmousie for the beta!


By the time Daniel and the others on the zodiac arrive back at the beach, the entire camp is already looking to Sawyer to point the way. He feels strong that day, his body humming with adrenaline and life and purpose.

He can do this.

-

Sawyer thinks best when the sun is highest in the sky. Everything is somehow clearer, no question who he is, his feet planted firmly on the ground. Sand gets washed away, structures go up, and everybody finds their place.

By the light of day, it doesn’t feel like that missed rescue was the end of them at all. It feels like maybe it was the beginning.

-

In the dark, the façade of their non-existence comes plainly into view. They are no one, and nowhere, forgotten and gone, no more discernable on a map than the edge of the ocean and the sand, storm clouds blotting out the moon’s silver rays. (But they're still here.)

He sits alone at night and questions things, wonders if he made the right choice, if there’s a way to take it back somehow.

“Don’t even think about it, James,” Rose says to him one night after dinner. “These people need you.”

-

Claire stumbles onto the beach one afternoon. She’s hungry and her feet are sore, but her hair smells like coconut shampoo, and Juliet tells Sawyer that there isn’t a single scratch anywhere on her, that she’s probably healthier than all the rest of them.

“Been looking for you, Mamacita,” Sawyer whispers next to her in the tent, after she’s eaten and can no longer stay awake.

She yawns and runs a hand through his hair. “I know,” she says.

Sawyer avoids mentioning Aaron. The time will come for that, and this isn’t it. But Claire doesn’t even ask – like she knows somehow, like maybe she’s okay with it all.

She ignores his questions of where she’s been, only tells him that she remembers feeling at peace, tells him that everything is going to be okay. “There’s nothing in the dark to be afraid of, Sawyer,” she says before closing her eyes. “Nothing at all.”

He sleeps next to her that night, close enough to feel the heat from her skin, afraid she’ll disappear again. But somehow, he knows she won’t.

-fin.

Date: 2008-09-18 01:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] toestastegood.livejournal.com
I don't ordinarily read Sawyer/Claire (I'm too busy shipping Sawyer and Charlie!), but I really liked the peaceful sense of the scene between them here. It was really very sweet. I loved Rose's cameo as well. If I was on the island, I think I'd definitely want her to be one of the leaders!

Claire's really awesome here: the way she's acting really makes you want to find out what's happened to her out there, stumbling out of the jungle unharmed. The mention of her hair smelling of shampoo is a really good touch. Whatever happened to her, she's been taken care of. The way that she's somehow just okay with Aaron being gone is a little bit creepy, because... well... she's Claire! I'd actually be really interested to see Claire without the baby. From the second we saw her, her pregnancy or her baby has always been all of her storyline. It'd be cool to see what she's like without that.

This was really creepy-but-cute! I enjoyed it - so I'm glad the [livejournal.com profile] lostsquee feedback challenge gave me a chance to come back and find it seeing as I must have missed it when it was first posted.

Date: 2008-09-18 03:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crickets.livejournal.com
Haha, creepy-but-cute. I think that's probably the most unique compliment I've ever gotten on a fic! Thank you so much for reading this and taking the time to leave such wonderful feedback! Much appreciated! And I'm glad you liked! :)

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